Grades

I got my science test results back today...nah! Disappointing to say the least, I failed ok I only just didn't pass by like 5 marks bu that's not the point. I guess this is a wake up call, I need to study more often...in fact I don't study at all at the moment which explains my crappy marks.
I aced history...again got 45 out of 50 good mark? yes did I expect it? no but that's not the point.

I wish I could pay the same sort of attention in maths and science as I do for history and english, both of which are easy subjects, for me at least. I know what studying can do, I studied for geography and actually passed, I study for commerce and top the class, my problem is motivation...well no more! I resolve to turn over a new leaf! from now on studying more often! I hope!

Fanfiction!

I love fanfiction! I don't go on as much as I used to though...which is weird cause for me fanfiction is the one place where being gay is considered normal..hell most of peoples favourite pairings are slash anyway :D I write fanfiction...or well..used to, I can't get that creative drive anymore, it sucks I used to love/hate writing.
Love because it was so much fun and it was a way for me to express my creativity and crap. hate because for me it never turned out like it did in my head. don't get me wrong I know I can write good, I have a really good vocabulary and seem to have a 'thing' for writing weird similes and metaphors but my sentence structure sucks, my grammar is...ok but that's why I have my Beta Tanika :D however my stories have no flow...and I guess that can be forgiven cause my first story so far. I want my writing to flow but it never does half the time it turns out crap.

as for the pairing I'm writing about it's not so much that I consider them the hottest characters in the book it's more to do with they seemed to have similar personality's and interests and what not. I think for me it was more about they were so...'straight' so quintessentially masculine I wanted them to be together to see if I could make them gay but yet still have them being the same rough masculine characters they were...or maybe I have a thing for muscular guys XD

"If you live in a rush, Or even if you don’t do anything,
Anybody is the same, that‘s right, death will still come around"

wow that's pretty depressing if you think about it, or realistic I prefer to think of it as realisticI guess that makes me sound rather "Emo" but any Idiot who calls someone emo has to realise that we all have Emotions..Duh

First Blog Post! yeah I got the idea off my friend...don't Judge me! -_-